Introduction
Feeling hopeless and unloved, BethAnn nearly lost her life to a massive drug overdose. In the midst of the battle for her soul, she cried out to God for help. At that moment God saved her and blessed her with a brand new hope for life. Six years later, after facing the most painful grief imaginable, BethAnn is still able to give thanks to God for each new day.BethAnn's true story is another one of our featured testimonies from you, the members and visitors of this site. Each story reveals a life transformed by Christian faith. If your relationship with God has made a significant difference in your life, we would like to hear about it. Submit your testimony by filling out this Submission Form.
BethAnn's Battle - From Darkness to Light
I have a testimony of a great love. I will tell of how God loved me at a time in my life when I felt unlovable and hopeless. I had become very depressed. Rather than turning to God, I turned away from God. I turned to drugs. This had been a pattern I developed as a young teenager. I self medicated to numb and void out pain and suffering.I Wanted to Die
To make a long story short, I remember the exact moment when I realized there was a very real battle going on for my soul and God truly saved me from myself. I had the intent to overdose. I felt that I would never overcome my guilt, fears and addiction. I wanted to die. I felt truly hopeless and unworthy.I remember looking in the mirror telling myself, "I hate you," over and over. The battle raged. I fell to my knees and begged God to help me, to save me -- and He did.
The doctor could not believe that I was alive after the amount of drugs that were in my system. He told me I was lucky to be alive, but I knew at that moment I was blessed.
Everything I Need
That was six years ago and I credit each day of my recovery to the Lord -- not myself -- for He is the One who gives me everything I need each day to stay clean. The Lord saved me. He transformed me from the inside out. He placed a light in me where there once was darkness.I am no longer the same person I was. I have gratitude and thankfulness for each day He brings to me. I know He saved me for a reason. I look for ways to honor and glorify His precious name.
A Painful Path
On June 22, 2005, my seven-week old daughter Madeline Renee died. This has been the single-most painful time I have ever had in my life, but the Lord has been here for me, carrying me down this painful path. The only thing that gets me through each day is knowing where my baby is, and knowing whose arms she is in, until I am reunited with her.
A Sense of Peace
I was with that sweet baby when she passed and she opened her eyes. I am still in awe to imagine what she saw at that very moment, and to think of the angels surrounding the room to guide her home. This gives me a sense of peace.Daily I try to spread the message of hope to others, especially to those with struggles. It is hard to understand God's will during difficult times, but we as Christians must remain faithful and trust Him, even when we don't completely understand.
Once I heard a Christian speaker say, "When we face trials in life, it is God's way of preparing us for a promotion." This promotion is a new chapter of our many seasons with Him. A new chapter of our life will soon begin, and we will have the opportunity to look for ways to promote Him. We can tell others of His love, grace and guidance.
I now have an appreciation for each new day in which I try to serve Him the best I can.
